If only I could explain to you in such a way as you might comprehend? I look for some evidence that God understands what it is like to be a man. Full of passion and compassion. Love. Hate. Joy. Sorrow. How every action reaction and every decision regret. Many times I have wondered from afar, … [Read more…]
“I belong to me – I am totally mine. I feel OK about who I am and what I have. I approve of myself. I have finally come to realize that when you have no expectations of others – then you have everything.” The point of belonging to myself is not egotistic. Egotism can become … [Read more…]
“My aloneness offers concrete security. If I am OK in me then no one can take that away. So I must learn to enjoy my aloneness as I am this afternoon. I will be a friend firstly to myself. I am my best friend. Why? Because in myself I can find enjoyment and peace in … [Read more…]
“I will form new friendships. I will seek friendships to enable me to share many of the good things that life had provided. In friendship I can fearlessly reach out to others and embrace them in genuine love because of their sake not because of my hidden pathological needs. I can laugh, love, share etc. … [Read more…]
“I have always enjoyed reading my Journals because of the transcendent pleasures they provide. These pages become a review and I can travel across them viewing the emotional pain in perspective and from a safe vantage point. That vantage point is the shelter of my own aloneness.” Why is it that the transient overshadows the … [Read more…]
Fear is a debilitating illness. Yes, illness. I have come to believe fear is an illness caused by a lack of faith. Of course, this is just a semantical argument. Fear may be a neurosis or just an emotion. But if I think of it as an illness I can find a cure for it … [Read more…]
Savoring the peace this afternoon I ask myself … what more could I want? It is a restful peace; a joyful peace; reassuring. I could only describe it as an overwhelming sense of being in tune with the universe. A feeling that where I am, is where I belong. A feeling that being alive is … [Read more…]
I will lay aside the fantasy of a perfect relationship. I will recognize that no relationship can ever stand the test of time nor reach the same degree of quality that I can find in myself. I will therefore abandon the futile lifelong search that continually shakes me from the inner peace and contentment that … [Read more…]
The expectation that is forever elusive and always provocative is the expectation that another human being can enter my life and provide a greater source of peace and joy than I can find for myself as I have done today. I then cling to that person for approval and shelter from aloneness. This possessiveness then … [Read more…]
“I will accept and embrace my aloneness because it is no more distressing than the peace I now enjoy. The considerable stress over the past three weeks has not come from aloneness but from unrealistic expectations and disappointments.” As I study more and more on what aloneness really means — I come to the conclusion … [Read more…]