(more from Thomas Wolf’s “You Can’t Go Home Again”) “Some things will never change. Some things will always be the same. Lean down your ear upon the earth and listen. The voice of forest water in the night, a woman’s laughter in the dark, the clean, hard rattle of raked gravel, the cricketing stitch of … [Read more…]
“I belong to me – I am totally mine. I feel OK about who I am and what I have. I approve of myself. I have finally come to realize that when you have no expectations of others – then you have everything.” The point of belonging to myself is not egotistic. Egotism can become … [Read more…]
“My aloneness offers concrete security. If I am OK in me then no one can take that away. So I must learn to enjoy my aloneness as I am this afternoon. I will be a friend firstly to myself. I am my best friend. Why? Because in myself I can find enjoyment and peace in … [Read more…]
“I will form new friendships. I will seek friendships to enable me to share many of the good things that life had provided. In friendship I can fearlessly reach out to others and embrace them in genuine love because of their sake not because of my hidden pathological needs. I can laugh, love, share etc. … [Read more…]
“I have always enjoyed reading my Journals because of the transcendent pleasures they provide. These pages become a review and I can travel across them viewing the emotional pain in perspective and from a safe vantage point. That vantage point is the shelter of my own aloneness.” Why is it that the transient overshadows the … [Read more…]
Fear is a debilitating illness. Yes, illness. I have come to believe fear is an illness caused by a lack of faith. Of course, this is just a semantical argument. Fear may be a neurosis or just an emotion. But if I think of it as an illness I can find a cure for it … [Read more…]
Meditation XVII by John Donne PERCHANCE he for whom this bell tolls may be so ill, as that he knows not it tolls for him; and perchance I may think myself so much better than I am, as that they who are about me, and see my state, may have caused it to toll for … [Read more…]
Savoring the peace this afternoon I ask myself … what more could I want? It is a restful peace; a joyful peace; reassuring. I could only describe it as an overwhelming sense of being in tune with the universe. A feeling that where I am, is where I belong. A feeling that being alive is … [Read more…]
I will lay aside the fantasy of a perfect relationship. I will recognize that no relationship can ever stand the test of time nor reach the same degree of quality that I can find in myself. I will therefore abandon the futile lifelong search that continually shakes me from the inner peace and contentment that … [Read more…]
The expectation that is forever elusive and always provocative is the expectation that another human being can enter my life and provide a greater source of peace and joy than I can find for myself as I have done today. I then cling to that person for approval and shelter from aloneness. This possessiveness then … [Read more…]